Tuesday, September 29, 2015

the distance between

Thoughts, ideas, and countless lightbulb moments, floating around to be forgotten in the confusion of far too many ways to express what I'm really thinking.

Sometimes, days are like that for me: a hodgepodge of things that, in theory, sound wonderful and exciting and promising in my mind. Why then, do none of these moments become true, hard reality? I've wrestled with the thought myself. I am not an idle person, accomplishing is something I do particularly well. I am also confident in the fact that I am not the only person who battles this.

How is it that we often have nothing to show for our seemingly brilliant ideas?

The enemy of creativity is fear.

Fear speaks of failure, whispering in our ears, destroying us somewhere in the distance between idea and implementation. How can we possibly crush it?

Write your thoughts. Carry a little notebook wherever you happen to go, jotting down ideas and moments as soon as they are understood in your mind. The most significant thing you can do is what has been put right in front of you.

Be more than a caged bird, afraid of leaving your little space and exploring the power of our talents.

You can only go up.

Wednesday, September 23, 2015


Doing nothing in particular is particularly hard for me. I am a firm believer in the fact that doing hard things is good for you, so yesterday was a lazy day.

I sat on a quilt
drank tea
ate almond butter with a spoon
and watched 4 episodes of law and order
while knitting a blanket.

I never took my pajamas off. It was bliss.

Getting caught up in little tasks can turn into a day of never-ending errands and emails. I hate that. Choose to fill the space between moments with things that bring you joy. 

Joy can change your world if you let it.

Read a book. Take a bath. Play the piano. Turn off your phone and take in the real world around you. "Live in the present" is a quote that many strive to live their lives by. How can that be possible if our heads are filled with to-do lists and thoughts about the five o'clock traffic. How can we fully be where we truly are if our minds are busy peeking into photos of what that boy in anatomy class is eating for breakfast. Ponder that.

Turn off your phone, open your eyes, and give yourself the excuse to do whatever the hell you want.

Have a lazy day.

Tuesday, September 1, 2015

9:37 am

The other Saturday, I tried something worth sharing.
When put into words, it seems quite simple. I promise it is a message we have all heard dozens of times, but hearing does not indicate listening just as listening does not indicate acting. 

I sit at the kitchen table on a hot August morning, using my thumb to flip through articles on a tiny phone screen. Mindless, thoughtless movement, filling the space between bites of breakfast.
9:37 AM. My thumb stops. Eyes follow a string of words on a page. The words turn to sentences, paragraphs, pages. Mindless and thoughtless no longer describe my actions. I process writing that will decide the course of my day.

The idea behind these words I am reading is that I (Maddie) can decide my world. In saying this, I do not mean that I can control it, but rather the opposite. The same happening can can be detrimental or joyous, drab or exhilarating, plain or radiant. The key is attitude.

Whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable
think about such things.

Philippians 4:8

I decided that my Saturday was going to be glorious. It was. If death comes with sadness, life should bring lots of happy.

Choose life.